Ew.

Im now offically sick. Thank you ass hole *cough* *cough* Blake *cough* *cough* Ugh, I hate him right now. He spread all his sickly germs to me like the butt hole he is. Im in science right now, like always. It seems to be the easiest class to blog in. I didnt do my homework, it was difficult. Darn haha. Sorta looking forward to advisory but not really...were either playing softball or soccer against Christiansen's class. Go Kuebker 7! Haha yeah thats how many softmores are in that class so its really for the freshman but we get to tag along and beast on some poor freshies. Except I didnt get the e-mail that said wear athletic shoes today... so im in flip flops. Bad idea. Zach said someone can just run for me if its softball. Soccer I can use a bum knee...actually I can use my bum knee for both if I really dont want to play. Yuck coughing no fun. I was insanely hot when I woke up this morning. It was not fun. I think im still running a tempurature....Ugh. Okay well this is lame now. Oh yeah wait by the way. Orting is a maybe Fedral Way is looking good. I need to go and look at the houses though, I think were going to this weekend. So theres your update for that!

Peace yo.

Long Time Coming.

Sitting in geo right now, its not very exciting. I did my homework now shes going over it, I should pay attention but im not going to. Sorry coach K. Uhm, I have lots of late work that I need to do. I seem to be f-ing up my life every way I turn.
So how does everyone feel about Orting? Well thats where I might end up soon, I like the house its pretty but theres another one out past like fedral way I dont know its a ways away either way. I guess it just depends on which house I like better. The fedral way one isnt as pretty but its way bigger with cooler features, but the orting house is soooo pretty and yeah...

Gtg math time I think...

Purple.

Sitting it Sci con mi beuna amiga MadDog. Mhmm you wish you were cool like us. Going to Oregon after school, should be interesting I guess.I know one ick is going I dont know if the other is. We shall see. Interesting to say in the least. Uhm.So I found out im wearing my BFFS shirt. I had no clue I just saw it and then wore it. Opps!
Ugh im gonna go txt and do "work" now.


Peace?

Quad.

Math, Im supposed to be doing something with a quadralateral. Thats a big word. Freak I dont know what were supposed to do right now. Hmm maybe I should have payed attention....Nahhh! Me and my table buddy are not good at paying attention. Haha hes playing games and im blogging. Oh well we get out of here hella soon. 1/2 hour classes today because of late start. Thank the lord!

So on a serious note...this weekend?
Yeah I have decided not to have any expectations, hopes, goals, nothing at all because when you do you are met with lots of dissapointment. So on that note im only going to go and have fun.
Except I had this AMAZING dream last night. It made me think sort of and now I cant get it out of my mind. My heart does flips when I think about it. Haha. It was about a boy and before you go all crazy with your perverted thoughts NO it was not "dirty" it was an innocent dream that I enjoyed very much. This guy that I liked/like (not the same F*ck head that screwed me over) and I were coming back from a trip and we stopped at starbucks and when I went to get out he stopped me and then kissed me. Not like serious makeout just a simple innocent kiss...okay well 3 kisses but still it was innocent and I liked it. =)
It kind of made me realize that I dont need that f*ck head because there are good guys out there its just hard to get one that you like because of the whole does he like me back thing. Either way Im going to try I guess.
Ugh. I sound like a hoe though. Moving off of one to another. Im not a hoe I swear I liked this guy before but didnt act on it because I was too scarred. I still kind of am but its okay. I only like 1 guy to be clear. Im not a hoe.

Uhm math is lame and we get out in 3 minutes.

ttyl
=D

Variation.

Bored...science isnt that good today. I have hitch-hikers thumb? Haha yeah.
Uhm this is piontless.
Thought of the moment:
How can someone who has caused you nothing but heartbreak still make your heart race?
No ryhme intended.
True story though. I saw IT today. Thats what he shall be called now: IT.
So I saw IT for a spilt second on the stairs I saw IT and then looked away uber fast and yet my heart sped up and im pretty sure I blushed.
I dont want that. I want nothing to do with IT. I want to not-like IT. Hate is too strong I dont want to hate anyone however I dont want to like IT anymore.
So then why do I?
Ugh.

So out.

Once again I have much homework to to but Im not doing it at the moment. Im too pissed off and f*cked up in the head to do it. I just got in another fight with my dad. Lovely right? Not. I'm so sick of him, his yelling, his anger, almost everything about him. I want to leave. I have to wait until he sleeps though. I ask once again when is life going to get any better? Family sucks, "friends" suck, boys suck, school sucks, EVERYTHING sucks! No worse than sucks its...I dont know I cant even put into words what it is. Its so many things I want to scream so loud I want to dissapear just fade away and no one will notice. I hate everything. Everyone. All of it. Im just so fucking sick of everything. I dont want to be here anymore. Its at a point where I dont want to live. Yeah. I need help but whatever. Tried to get some but you know what? I got yelled at. Yep my dad yelled at me about how its my choice to be "happy" or "sad" well you know what im fucking sick if it was my choice I would be dead or far far far away from here. Im tired of faking emotions, im tired of acting EVERY SINGLE DAY, pretending to EVERYONE that im okay and life is all happy and good. What the hell is happy even? Its all fake emotions are fake everything its so fake. Stupid. Blast the music a little louder its the only thing that keeps me here. Dreams are dead. Wishes dont EVER come true. Life is just a big ball of fucked up messes. I've heard too many times that every obstacle in life is just another test of life. Well you know what. I FAIL. I GIVE UP. IM DONE. STOP YOUR FUCKING TEST BECAUSE YOU WON OKAY? Fuck. This whole blog has just been a whole bunch of anger. I hope no one reads it. If you do im sorry. Its something I should keep to myself but I cant do that anymore thats how people explode. Sorry if you read it but I needed to get it down in words at least.

Done.

I hate school. I hate boys. I hate girls. I hate alot of things. This weekend sucked. I hated it. Surprised? Hate hate hate. Hate and unnecessary sadness. Why cry over a dumb boy. You have to stop and think about it though, who are you mad at: The boy who stabbed you in the back...or the best friend that twisted it... they both need to share the blame? Well the best friend denys anything. Well not really she told you straight up heres what happened heres what they did and she claims she doesnt like him. Except then she spends the night at your house and sits there ALL night and ALL day texting him and flirting with him right infornt of you like you dont even matter. Like its a game to her. What about the boy? After all the games you put up with after all the crap you went through after falling for him and trusting him he drops you the second he sees your BEST FERIEND, what about him? He says oh we can be friends, I I want to be your friend blah blah blah. Thats not even the better part. While they texting flirting back and fourth and you text "fighting" back and fourth both girls get a message saying "I really like you I think we should go out I want to go out with you" You get a message after that from him again this time saying "sorry about that I ment to send it to my little brother so he can say it to a girl he likes" your best friend doesnt get that message. He just lied to you after claiming hes not a liar. That message was ment for your best friend. After he knows her for few hours.

I would say that Saturday was a real FML

Oh yeah I got in a fist fight to but we wont go into that.